Facebook!!!

im not so sure about facebook, i know some people are completely addicted and have a very unhealthy realtionship with it, people whio are on it all the time. Now i made an account with a name..any name not mine just to see if i could find any of my friends on there and yeah i found loads. anyways one friend from high school had her profile open for all to look through her photos and stuff, and as i was looking OMG i came across a photo of myself....i mean aaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhh it was a photo of when i was 16, now it is bad enough to find a photo of myself but what is worse is that i am in my school uniform, with no hijabb....aaarrrrgggghhhhhhh. the only thing is that it is not a clear photo. anyways that was last week this week i am just looking at another friends profile and there there i was again...what the hell....i didnt even know this photo existed!!! wow! okay so what was bad was that it was a clear photo very clear but what was good was that i had started wearing hijaab so erm i dont know i am not comfortable with it at all. i guess every other person has their profile pic on its just that i am not comfortable at all....anyway i am now thinking Allah knows how many other photos people have of me. I have a strict no photo policy at public events but i guess i am not always aware of when the camera is on me!

oops i did it again

I am so depressed about my lifestyle, i want to change it but i just dont seem to be able to, it lasts a few days and then i am back on the junk. Fizzy drinks, chocolate and crisps. Its like i have no stamina or will power left. I know this kind of junk food is disturbing my sleep and it is making my depression worse. I just wish that i could stick to a healthy diet without it being a chore. When i was a teenager i use to make all these face masks and my skin looked good to mashallah, and now i can go weeks without even moisturising that when i do people actually notice it and say i look nice ...( that is really sad!)
so what stops me frm eating the way i want, i think it is depression and i am just going around in circles. we owe it to ourselves to eat well, and i have to think about my kids picking up on my bad habits. Oh Allah help me this time, i am gonna, try again and give it another shot, but maybe with a different approach, i will add good food rather than stopping the junk completely and try to ween my self off the rubbish, man i sound like a druggie!

BIG NO to late night meals.

one thing that i know for sure works with maintaining a healthy weight or trying to lose weight is the time that you have your last meal!

8 o'clock is the time that you should cease eating, leaving meals late on in the night is not good at all..there should always be a couple of hours between your last meal and bed time. I have people say that well i eat at 10 and then dont go to sleep until 12 that is a good two hours before bed, its not the same. Our activities decrease with time, at 8 you are still likely to be moving about more and doing stuff than at 10 or 11 as our bodies grow more weary.

I think the best thing to do is eat and then brush your teeth, use a strong mouthwash that will put you off from putting anything in your mouth!

Also I have found with myself that potatoes are not good in any shape or form, chips being the biggest culprit.

Today so far:
fruit n fibre cereal with water
banana

diet update

salam im back after a holiday!!
so have my eating habits improved....not in the slightest! i lost half a stone due to falling ill but i have got my taste back and boy do i just want to eat rubbish, i mean check this out i am so crazy about fizzy drinks that i will eat a packet of crisps ( or two) so that my drink tastes even better after the salt in take!!! this is such a bad habit and i need to snap out of it.

in the time that i was away ( almost a month ) i ate little to no fruit and my water intake was rubbish....why why cant i just be healthy, I JUST WANT TO BE HEALTHY...but i am weak and give into that dreaded sugar rush...it makes me feel happy ...momentarily...but happy. maybe i need to look beyond diet, i know there are aspects of my life that i would love to change, ive just gotta keep that faith strong and keep going.

Rapid weight gain

this is totally shocking i have put on i think 7 pounds or more, it is still a healthy weight for me but the only problem is it has all headed mainly for my backside and busts (though the latter is a good thing!) my problem is that i have gone back to eating so much rubbish and the food that we have for eid so does not help. i really have to monitor what i eat as it tends to be very bad food, sugary, oil fried and lots of fizzy drinks and i notice that the amounts that i am eating are getting larger.

typical day:
toast and boiled egg

chocolate bar snack crisp and glass of coke

rice with whatever curries are on the go

more chocolate

anything sugary i can find to snack on BISCUITS!!!

more coke

rice and curry again

there is no veg or fruit.....and i am so bad! yesterday i weighed my self and found that i had put on a lot of weight i checked my bmi and it is 21. something so though i am still within healthy limits i am afraid of the future so missy that is it time to call it quits today:

cereal with cranberry juice

half salad sandwich with mayo

few somosas

rice with veg and chicken

rice pudding and afew mini gulab jamuns

4 sour gobstoppers ( grow up!)

i guess this is better but i need to drink water more, i am really gonna try and drink more tomorrow inshallah.

Ramadhan.

Okay so Ramadhan is just around the corner Alhamdulilah, so I am gonna use the last couple of days ( if that ) to eat as much as I can during the day and get it out of my system, I will eat for England, Wales, Scotland and Ireland! Nah I am actually learning stuff to prepare for Ramadan, inshallah that is the best food for the soul. I always relearn Subhandhil Mulki and the prayers for tarawih, to make sure that I am saying them correctly after so long! its wierd though even though I dont say them in my day to day life, it just comes ruching back when I open my mouth. So is everyone preparing!

Feeling good!

So today I have been a good girl, fatty eternal peace you will be proud of me!

Cereal,

Whole wheat pasta with tuna and sweetcorn..... with salad (cherry tomotoes, sweetcorn onion, beetroot, green pepper and carrot)

Rice and curry

water and orange juice.

okay so i had two choc bars, packet of crisps.. but you see i didnt want to go into cardiac arrest from my body not being able to cope with too many nutrients in one go.

so i feel so much better within and with myself, inshallah I will try and keep this up.

oh

blog rename???

I think that I should rename this blog to Queen's unhealthy - how to kill your body - get wrinkles and pimples before your time, hay like hair and bad digestive system Quest.... Why oh why can't I get through that thick skull of mine that Allah has been very kind to me and I should be grateful for that and not take advantage of it!!! Iv'e decided to name and shame myself in public by taking pics of what I had to eat today! Prepare to be disgusted with me, because I deserve it!

This is breakfast, yes fishfingers, some really evil looking potato faces, 1 very badly fried egg, kidney and baked beans. A far cry from the fruit and fibre cereal that I was supposed to eat!!!!!! But I did have a glass of cranberry juice, that makes it all better ( not).

They were so right with their jingle "once you pop, you just can't stop" and i just couldn't!! i ate almost all the contents with some fizzy pop.

For lunch I had the following rice, lamb curry with potatoes, cherry tomatoes salad, lemon and chillies! with water

then I had a cornetto, and its not even six!

I do not feel at all pleased with myself, I wish that i could change my diet, its not to lose weight as Mashallah believe it or not Im not overweight!!its just to lookafter myself and my body that is Amannah from Allah. Allah please forgive me and guide me.

How is my skincare regime going??? I bet you are finding it hard to believe that, that to is non existent!

well done on keepin up the good work

Okay I am so so proud of myself, i really need to congratulate myself on my diet in the last past weeks which has consisited of

many many packets of crisps

fizzy drinks galore

chocolate like its going out of fashion

take out processed food

fruit and veg oh no didnt want to upset the regime!!!! what is wrong with me!!!! depression that is what, anyway Im going to my mums soon so inshallah i will try and "fix" my self.

What you eat today, you will wear tomorrow!

So lets see i have totally neglected this blog which was supposed to be a regular thing, and also neglected my healthy eating regime, my beauty regime, everything out of the window. you know what as soon as I am depressed which is quite regular, I just let everything go, I dont bother with anything and look for quick fixes to make me happy again. the weeks that i was looking after myself I looked and felt better, now I feel sluggish and horrible, skin looks dull. I read somewhere what you eat today you wear tomorrow, this is so so true. I really really want to do this and inshallah I will.



Anyway a quick mask that is meant to tighten the skin and make it look nice is just milk. use a cotton wool ball and dip it in a saucer ( bowl whatever) of milk and just apply to the face avoiding eye area. leave on for 5 - 10 mins and wash off( do this before bath or shower as you dont want to be smelling of milk!)

Suncare

Im in a foul mood, but this is suppose to be my retreat, i will not bring the negativity in here!

Anyway i just wanted to share somethings about sun protection, i think that as asians we dismiss this easily as we think that it is not necessary but honestly it is still very important, unless you want to have wrinkles well before your age and Asian skin develops pigmentation otherwise known as age spots. I did some research into suncare and i found that what you use might actually cause more damage than good. A few years ago I fell in love with the Liz Earle range, and one thing that she says about sun proctection is the difference between chemical and mineral sunscreens...well actually read it here

"There are several good reasons why we do not use any chemical sunscreens (such as benzophenones, homosalate, benzene derivatives or cinnamates). Firstly, they can trigger allergic reactions in those with sensitive skins. Secondly, some studies indicate that they may actually encourage free-radical activity - potentially damaging skin cells and accelerating skin ageing. By contrast, non-chemical sunscreens reflect UV rays away from the skin and do not allow them to be absorbed.

Our non-chemical sunscreens include broad-spectrum naturally derived mineral filters such as Titanium dioxide and Zinc oxide. You will find both these in our Sun Shade sun protection range - ideal for daily protection for all the family. And you will also find Titanium dioxide as a non-chemical sunscreen in our Daily Eye Repair."

Taken from : http://uk.lizearle.com/index_2.php?userpage=faq#SUN

okay i bought this product i think about a year ago but didnt always use it ( naughty naughty...but you have to actually leave the house to allow the sun to hit you right!) anyway it kinds leaves your skin looking really white until it can soak in, i think if you have darker skin then you have to make sure that you dnt look like a clown. other products that i have found that contain mineral filters as opposed to chemical filters are Johnsons baby skin care and nivea baby skincare lotion, but i cant be sure if they are talking about the exact same thing.

Anyway a little story as I was growing up I wore glasses and I would not be seen dead without them .... but you know there is a certain stigma attached to wearing glasses especially for us bangladeshis, so my mum use to try her utmost to keep them away from me, and the more she did the more I wanted them. by the time i hit my teens my mum got increasingly worried, until one day she introduced me to the idea of contacts, i was not at all keen, you see years of wearing glasses meant that when i took them off I had a very distinguished white line going across the bridge of my nose. but there was my mum wanting to make me more marriagble material and glasses just wouldnt do! so what did i do....lol, i got cotton wool and stuck it with moisturiser to my face all except as close as i could get to the white mark, then i spent endless hours in the sun tanning the bridge of my nose......finally i got there! the things i did for mum!crazy crazy crazy! i should have just waited for my self made chemical face peel but that wasnt to happen till 2 years later!

Today
french toast wit beans water

rice with chicken and salad
vegs from a fish curry

pepsi, almost a whole tub of pringles kitkat ( im depressed )...by the way i heard on a programme that to work off a tub of pringles require 2 and half hours worth of heavy duty gardening..... oopps

jackfruit
still night time meal to go probably be chicken and meat again!

Comparing ingredients.

I sampled a lush moisturiser called Celestial, actually it was quite nice. below are just some of the ingredients you will find in what i use to use oil of Olay and what i am considering to use Celestial by lush


Aqua, Glycerin, Isohexadecane, Niacinamide, Dimethicone, Isopropyl Isostearate, Polyacrylamide, Sorbitan Stearate, Tocopheryl Acetate, Panthenol, Zinc Oxide, Magnesium Ascorbyl Phosphate, Camellia Oleifera, Sucrose Polycottonseedate, C13-C14 Isoparaffin, Laureth-7, Dimethiconol, Myristyl Alcohol, Cetyl Alcohol, Stearyl Alcohol, Arachidyl Alcohol, Titanium Dioxide, Palmitic Acid, Stearic Acid, Citric Acid, Oleth-3-Phosphate, Ammonium Polyacrylate, PEG-100 Stearate, Disodium EDTA, Tocopherol, Ethylparaben, Methylparaben, Propylparaben, Benzyl Alcohol, BHT.



Vanilla Water (Vanilla planifolia), Almond Oil (Prunus dulcis), Almond Milk (Prunus dulcis), Glycerine, Cocoa Butter (Theobroma cacao), Fresh Dove Orchid Extract (Dendrobium), Cetearyl Alcohol, Stearic Acid, Triethanolamine, Methylparaben, Propylparaben














I have to say that the olay product does leave my skin looking so nice when i have got it on, but just compare the amount of chemicals in there! it is quite scary!I really dont want to put so many chemicals on my face. Do you look at whats in your pot? Do chemicals bother you?

Yesterdays menu
Waffle, fishfingers, beans, fried egg and cranberry juice ( well done for keeping up the good work, what a nutrious breakfast!!!!)
2 packets of crisps
gazillion choclate bars ( got depressed when his sister walked in the house with luggage and all for a long stint!)
Rice with chicken and salad
WHERE IS THE FRUIT AND WATER???????

Why oh why

oh no we have people here that means irregular posts etc, i really did want this blog at least to be a regular thing but it looks like that its not happening, :( well i will try when i can.

read the instructions!!!

hey welcome anchor girl, thanks for joining me! so today i just wanted to write about how important it is not to overdo anything on your skin, if you use a product and it seems to be doing you wonders , keep within the limits... here is a story that will ward you off from doing so.

Mashallah I have never really had skin problems, but still wanted super radiant skin, so when i was a teenager i was really into making my own face mask and stuff and it was great! anyway i still used off the shelf products and one particular deep cleansing product i used i think was called skin clear, anyway it stated to be used once a week.... buy hey why listen to them, i used it daily for about 3 or 4 days can't quite remember then i found my skin starting to hurt, the next day when i woke up my skin looked awful i could not talk properly because it was so tight and dry i could not smile at all. as the days went on my face started to turn red ( my skin is olive tone) and it was also eid and we had guests over it was so embarrassing! anyway it got worse over the course of 3 days. i would compare it to someone who had been severley sunburnt. by the end of the week, the top layer started peeling ( i can hear you all laughing! stop it it was horrible!) any way after myself made chemical peel, mashallah i got my skin back! my mum threatened me that if i ever dared use anything again she would kill me! so i stopped using all of that and stuck to making my own stuff... so beware!

todays menu
beanburger, toast salad cranberry juice

crisps

roasted fish with salad leaves and chicken curry aubergine and marrow in batter and rice
water ( small portions of each thing)

2 packet of crisps!!!! ( not good!)
pepsi

fish and chips with beans more pepsi

rice with curry
choc bar

okay 3 crip packets is awful!
got to stop it!!!!!!

water water and more water....then loo

okay so we are told to drink roughly 8 glasses of water a day, that is about 3 pints,( 1.8 litres ) i only had 3 glasses and felt that i was constantly going to the toilet! maybe im doing it wrong, instead of an actual full glass each time perhaps it would be better to sip throughout the day......need to get one of those water bottles. but i heard that your body has to get use to the amount of water you feed it, so it is a case of just to keep going!

tea and coffee as i have heard do not count towards water intake, i think herbal tea is ok, not quite sure. I thankfully am not a coffe or tea drinker and im glad of it too actually!

okay here are reasons to drink water taken from my torn and tatted health book :

1. oxygen is transported more effectively around the body


2. 
   


3. your kidneys are flushed out more effectively, so this eliminates toxins, hence less toxins reach skins surface.


4. 
   


5. skin cells are plumped up and lips hydrated, so you should see an improvement in skin and hair!


6. improves your digestive system


7. slows down signs of ageing love this one!


8. easier to burn fat


9. okay and this one i think is well worth considering i will quote it as it is in the book "more powerful and flexible muscles in the face and elsewhere. muscles hould be 3 quarters water and if they lose just 3 percent of that they lose 10 percent in strength." so girls down that water if you wanna look and feel good!

Todays menu

1 wholemeal oat and seed bread with boiled egg

bean burger with wholemeal bread and a large helping of salad ( onions tomato, red green yellow peppers, chilli, coriander leaves, lettuce) this was really yummy oh i forgot the mayo added! but felt nutrious.

Fried fish with salad

rice meat curry with salad

cranberry juice 2 glasses

water 2 glasses

few choc brownies

packet crisps

salad with meat rice ( very small portion )

few prawns

bowl of ice cream

i think i overate again!

naughty girl!

okay so the last two days have been appauling food wise and i feel too disgusted with myself to write it down. lets just say i had particularly bad pains in my tummy which is not good!
why am i such a fool, good food = good health bad food = bad health!
but i guess i did have some fruit yesterday which is better than nothing namely mangoes, jackfruit. this is a pic of jackfruit it looks ugly, and actually can have an unpleasant smell, i never ate this as a kid but now i try just for the sake of variety. there is a reasonwhy we have this at home which i will write about in my other blog. this blog is solely for ME things.








I know that i love lush products now. i have been using this thing called big shampoo and i love it! i fear that i may never use conventional shampoos again. the good side is that there are very few chemixcals just to preserve it. it is a wierd texture but it gives your head a good massage as it is sea salt. alongside this the lady in lush gave me a sample of this conditioner called jasmine and henna fluff eaze.
the lady told me it was a pre conditioner so you put it on dry hair and leave it to do its wonders. i have to say I love it! my hair is actually looking nice, or could that be beacuse i have neglected it so long!






I have to say that Mashallah i feel my skin is looking a lot nicer mashallah, i wonder if its that skin nanny moisturiser or the fact that i have been trying to cut down on fizz and add some fruit? i dont know!
But you know what it is so expensive £25! what to do, the other benefit is that the lady gave me a really really small sample and it has lasted me over a week! so in the long run???!!!

what i will be definitely buying is there skin masks, which are made fresh everyday and contain no chemicals what so ever cant wait! iv'e gone lush crazy again!!




Todays menu

i thnk maybe i ate too much...jeez you think so you can hardly move girl!anyway here goes

1 slice wholemeal bread toast with boiled egg water

packet of crisps 1 kitkat water

fried fish with tomatoes, prawns with red,green peppers with rice water

chocolate donuts 3 mini

3 pieces jackfruit, mongoes, melon and pinapple fruit salad! Yay!

rice with meat and potatoes

bowl of ice cream

okay least there is water and fruit today!

the weekend was awful food wise, i ate so much rubbish and guess what i was in pain, from excess fizzy drinks and just nutrional less food. but that was partly due to two reasons 1) family birthday gathering 2) father in law troubles. i always reach for rubbish to fix my mood.

anyway despite how i felt i thought i would pamper myself, actually its not called pampering it is what people do on a normal basis, but the way my life is it is pampering.

i used this new product called big again from Lush it is a hair shampoo made of sea salt and some other good stuff and it smells great. my hair has suffered big time as it is constantly wrapped up in a scarf and never allowed to breath ( unless im in bed) anyway i went through a time of just washing my hair running my fingers through it and then tying it up, bad move after 3 weeks i could no longer run my fingers through my hair, yes thats right no brush involved. I was really really depressed at the time. anyway when one day i finally tried to tackle the knots it was too painful, my sis dragged me to a womans only hairdresser and i got my locks chopped off.
as i use to only shampoo my hair and NEVER condition it, it became brittle and horrible. But mashllah i have to say it is looking a lot healthier, no matter how depressed they make me im gonna try and at least do the basics. I also used a pre conditioner... forgotten what its called, lady gave me a sample to try.

Todays menu

1 slice of wholemeal bread fried with egg and cranberry juice

2 packets crisps

1 chocolate bar,

snacked on mini donuts and pakaras

rice with fish ( baked fish which was crushed and the usual onions chilli corriander and a bengali leaf called lai fata was added)

muki ( bengali veg)

meat with potato curry

coke

water

gonna go and have a somosa after this

today was again another bad day, i need to control my depression there is not a single fruit in todays binge!

Very bad food day

hardly ate today, and most of what i did was just total rubbish

1 slice of toast with oads of humous, made me feel sick

1 packet of crisps, 2 chocolate bars, glass pepsi

handful of rice with chicken
spicy beanburger

disgusting! not happy with myself at all!

needless to say i am feeling low, but im gonna put that aside and still concentrate on my wellbeing.

anyway i have totally neglected my skin, i can go weeks without having actually moisturised, it is not good, and my poor skin has just gotten use to it, im gonna try and change this Inshallah. Also from time to time the skin needs some other beauty treatments, such as exfoliation

benefits of this

• stimulates circulation for all over body glow
• encourages elimination of toxins
• sloughs away dead skin cells
• clears pores, which help prevent spots and blemishes

• promotes new skin surface

this is taken from a book that i am currently reading. anyway please remember my skin is not your skin so be careful when doing anything, if you want to try it do so at your own risk.

anyway the easiest and cheapest skin exfoliater that i know of is soap and sugar, i read this in book a long time ago. i have tried it and i found it a little harsh, but it really cleaned my skin. just lather some soap on your face and then slowly add sugar and scrub away.

I use to do this as a teenager but obviously now i do it once a year maybe, but thats about to change. today i got a shop bout exfoliater it is the Mudd range and it is the walnut one. i really like this one and i find it good for my skin.

Anway i have pains at the side. I have recovered from two days of headaches as a result of giving up my extra sugar intake namely...a can of fizzy drink and yes chocolate.
My skin is looking better already but i dont think im gonna stick with Skin Nanny... looks too greasy

Throughout today i have eaten:

I slice seed and oat wholemeal bread with humous,
snack size yoghurt and glass cranberry juice

cucumber slices, 2 tangerines, 3 slices mango,

rice with lamb curry, fried vegetables (far too salty and greasy) tomato Salsa salad.... i love this salsa it is yummy it consists of roasted tomatoes, thinly sliced onions, red chillies, corriander roasted garlic... it is lovely with curries!

packet of M and Ms

2 glasses of water

another glass of cranberry juice

small portion of rice with meat and few veg

okay today is a bit better had a stomach cramp i wonder if it was peanuts from m and ms?????
remembered to moisturise and will try and exfoliate my skin tonight ( just face!)
gonna try pantene smooth and sleek on my hair as opposed to johnsons baby shampoo ( DONT ASK!)

The reason why i have started this blog is to keep a track on my health which is not very good at the moment, i have totally neglected everything. I suffer from depression and my mood swings are crazy, i make it worse by the food that i eat- quick sugar fixes that make me happy for a while then i feel down. Ive decided to keep a track of what i eat and how it affects me also i intend to start looking after my body, skin, hair, nails etc. I have tried to keep a diary like this but it has not worked as i either lose the book or family members (inlaws) interfere. so here goes.
it is gonna be pretty boring really and is more for my use but any comments, advice would still be appreciated.

I have a BMI of 19 or was it 20? got to recalculate regardless I am not over or underweight just okay. not trying to lose weight just lead healthier lifestyle. My ailments: poor digestion and circulation, stomach cramps, stress, skin not looking as good as it could do. Parts of my body need toning.

Throughout today i have eaten:

Bran flakes with dried fruit water

tangerine, slices of cucumber

2 choc bars (aaarrrggghh) got to stop this

rice with chicken and veg curry

bean burger with white bap( brown go for brown!) water

cranberry juice

few slices of mango

Not too bad today have to try and drink more water....need to include more fruit and veg.
I am completely addicted to chocolate! i need to give it up!

am using a trial moisturiser called skin nanny from Lush, incredibly greasy looking( maybe i put too much) has a lot of natural ingredients and has a spf of 30. costs £24!!! far too much, maybe that's why she offered me a free trial after the look of disgust on my face, lets see if it is any good. Don't feel good paying all that money for a skin moisturiser.