naughty girl!

okay so the last two days have been appauling food wise and i feel too disgusted with myself to write it down. lets just say i had particularly bad pains in my tummy which is not good!
why am i such a fool, good food = good health bad food = bad health!
but i guess i did have some fruit yesterday which is better than nothing namely mangoes, jackfruit. this is a pic of jackfruit it looks ugly, and actually can have an unpleasant smell, i never ate this as a kid but now i try just for the sake of variety. there is a reasonwhy we have this at home which i will write about in my other blog. this blog is solely for ME things.








I know that i love lush products now. i have been using this thing called big shampoo and i love it! i fear that i may never use conventional shampoos again. the good side is that there are very few chemixcals just to preserve it. it is a wierd texture but it gives your head a good massage as it is sea salt. alongside this the lady in lush gave me a sample of this conditioner called jasmine and henna fluff eaze.
the lady told me it was a pre conditioner so you put it on dry hair and leave it to do its wonders. i have to say I love it! my hair is actually looking nice, or could that be beacuse i have neglected it so long!






I have to say that Mashallah i feel my skin is looking a lot nicer mashallah, i wonder if its that skin nanny moisturiser or the fact that i have been trying to cut down on fizz and add some fruit? i dont know!
But you know what it is so expensive £25! what to do, the other benefit is that the lady gave me a really really small sample and it has lasted me over a week! so in the long run???!!!

what i will be definitely buying is there skin masks, which are made fresh everyday and contain no chemicals what so ever cant wait! iv'e gone lush crazy again!!




Todays menu

i thnk maybe i ate too much...jeez you think so you can hardly move girl!anyway here goes

1 slice wholemeal bread toast with boiled egg water

packet of crisps 1 kitkat water

fried fish with tomatoes, prawns with red,green peppers with rice water

chocolate donuts 3 mini

3 pieces jackfruit, mongoes, melon and pinapple fruit salad! Yay!

rice with meat and potatoes

bowl of ice cream

okay least there is water and fruit today!

the weekend was awful food wise, i ate so much rubbish and guess what i was in pain, from excess fizzy drinks and just nutrional less food. but that was partly due to two reasons 1) family birthday gathering 2) father in law troubles. i always reach for rubbish to fix my mood.

anyway despite how i felt i thought i would pamper myself, actually its not called pampering it is what people do on a normal basis, but the way my life is it is pampering.

i used this new product called big again from Lush it is a hair shampoo made of sea salt and some other good stuff and it smells great. my hair has suffered big time as it is constantly wrapped up in a scarf and never allowed to breath ( unless im in bed) anyway i went through a time of just washing my hair running my fingers through it and then tying it up, bad move after 3 weeks i could no longer run my fingers through my hair, yes thats right no brush involved. I was really really depressed at the time. anyway when one day i finally tried to tackle the knots it was too painful, my sis dragged me to a womans only hairdresser and i got my locks chopped off.
as i use to only shampoo my hair and NEVER condition it, it became brittle and horrible. But mashllah i have to say it is looking a lot healthier, no matter how depressed they make me im gonna try and at least do the basics. I also used a pre conditioner... forgotten what its called, lady gave me a sample to try.

Todays menu

1 slice of wholemeal bread fried with egg and cranberry juice

2 packets crisps

1 chocolate bar,

snacked on mini donuts and pakaras

rice with fish ( baked fish which was crushed and the usual onions chilli corriander and a bengali leaf called lai fata was added)

muki ( bengali veg)

meat with potato curry

coke

water

gonna go and have a somosa after this

today was again another bad day, i need to control my depression there is not a single fruit in todays binge!

Very bad food day

hardly ate today, and most of what i did was just total rubbish

1 slice of toast with oads of humous, made me feel sick

1 packet of crisps, 2 chocolate bars, glass pepsi

handful of rice with chicken
spicy beanburger

disgusting! not happy with myself at all!

needless to say i am feeling low, but im gonna put that aside and still concentrate on my wellbeing.

anyway i have totally neglected my skin, i can go weeks without having actually moisturised, it is not good, and my poor skin has just gotten use to it, im gonna try and change this Inshallah. Also from time to time the skin needs some other beauty treatments, such as exfoliation

benefits of this

• stimulates circulation for all over body glow
• encourages elimination of toxins
• sloughs away dead skin cells
• clears pores, which help prevent spots and blemishes

• promotes new skin surface

this is taken from a book that i am currently reading. anyway please remember my skin is not your skin so be careful when doing anything, if you want to try it do so at your own risk.

anyway the easiest and cheapest skin exfoliater that i know of is soap and sugar, i read this in book a long time ago. i have tried it and i found it a little harsh, but it really cleaned my skin. just lather some soap on your face and then slowly add sugar and scrub away.

I use to do this as a teenager but obviously now i do it once a year maybe, but thats about to change. today i got a shop bout exfoliater it is the Mudd range and it is the walnut one. i really like this one and i find it good for my skin.

Anway i have pains at the side. I have recovered from two days of headaches as a result of giving up my extra sugar intake namely...a can of fizzy drink and yes chocolate.
My skin is looking better already but i dont think im gonna stick with Skin Nanny... looks too greasy

Throughout today i have eaten:

I slice seed and oat wholemeal bread with humous,
snack size yoghurt and glass cranberry juice

cucumber slices, 2 tangerines, 3 slices mango,

rice with lamb curry, fried vegetables (far too salty and greasy) tomato Salsa salad.... i love this salsa it is yummy it consists of roasted tomatoes, thinly sliced onions, red chillies, corriander roasted garlic... it is lovely with curries!

packet of M and Ms

2 glasses of water

another glass of cranberry juice

small portion of rice with meat and few veg

okay today is a bit better had a stomach cramp i wonder if it was peanuts from m and ms?????
remembered to moisturise and will try and exfoliate my skin tonight ( just face!)
gonna try pantene smooth and sleek on my hair as opposed to johnsons baby shampoo ( DONT ASK!)

The reason why i have started this blog is to keep a track on my health which is not very good at the moment, i have totally neglected everything. I suffer from depression and my mood swings are crazy, i make it worse by the food that i eat- quick sugar fixes that make me happy for a while then i feel down. Ive decided to keep a track of what i eat and how it affects me also i intend to start looking after my body, skin, hair, nails etc. I have tried to keep a diary like this but it has not worked as i either lose the book or family members (inlaws) interfere. so here goes.
it is gonna be pretty boring really and is more for my use but any comments, advice would still be appreciated.

I have a BMI of 19 or was it 20? got to recalculate regardless I am not over or underweight just okay. not trying to lose weight just lead healthier lifestyle. My ailments: poor digestion and circulation, stomach cramps, stress, skin not looking as good as it could do. Parts of my body need toning.

Throughout today i have eaten:

Bran flakes with dried fruit water

tangerine, slices of cucumber

2 choc bars (aaarrrggghh) got to stop this

rice with chicken and veg curry

bean burger with white bap( brown go for brown!) water

cranberry juice

few slices of mango

Not too bad today have to try and drink more water....need to include more fruit and veg.
I am completely addicted to chocolate! i need to give it up!

am using a trial moisturiser called skin nanny from Lush, incredibly greasy looking( maybe i put too much) has a lot of natural ingredients and has a spf of 30. costs £24!!! far too much, maybe that's why she offered me a free trial after the look of disgust on my face, lets see if it is any good. Don't feel good paying all that money for a skin moisturiser.